Meet John...

In my last post I failed to mention a large reason why my life seems extra chaotic at the moment.
Meet John.
As I have talked with my family and friends over the last few days I have been able to talk to them a little bit about him. I regret that many will not get to meet him anytime soon but I wanted to introduce him to you through words until you actually get to meet the real deal. Maybe tonight I can even snap some pictures for you so he can become more real and perhaps you could even see why it is I have found the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Admittedly, in the past, I have sported a large cheese-flavored chip on my shoulder for men and perhaps even relationships in general. I think a large part of this was due to experiences of my friends and also even some of my own that have not turned out so well. I always figured it would take me a long time to "get used to someone" long enough to actually fall in love with them. I have always had rather long-term relations and yet still I could never get things right. Perhaps I was just waiting for the former relationships to "become right" when in retrospect, I see clearly why they could never be successful. I know that the relationship with John is still new but I also know that I am going to spend the rest of my life with him. I can't believe how right everything feels.
From the start John has always been incredibly supportive of my ideas. I found this growing up in my family with parents and siblings to some extent but never before in a romantic relationship. We have already had to make some major decisions in regards to our relationship and future and John never fails to consider my plans or my ideas. He is a full supporter of "the list" and even loves me for it.
As everything is kind of up in the air, my first instinct is to panic. As I have gotten older I have found that I am somewhat of a control freak. Not when it comes to others (I am surprisingly open about this) but definately in regards to my own life. John has the ability with one look or one word to calm me down and to help remind me that everything truly will turn out ok. He keeps reminding me that even though I have difficult choices to make, whichever I choose will be a good choice. I am not in a position where I am forced to choose bad choice or bad choice...only two great things.
I have watched how John has opened up his life to me in a very unselfish way. He is making major changes so I can still pursue the things that are important to me. Once in a while in a gentle way he reminds me that "it's not just all about me." This is definately something that I need once in a while.
John is a very grateful man. He often thanks me for the little things I wasn't sure he even noticed. He also is very thankful to God and recognizes that all that he has is a gift and that it could be taken away at any time.
John is ambitious like me. He is not afraid of my intensity to accomplish goals and he himself is a "list guy". Education is important to him and he is preparing to begin his Master's Program. He takes pride in his work and is honest in his dealings.
I feel extremely blessed to have John in my life. I know we will have many fantastic years together and I look forward to them with great anticipation.